He who has an ear...let him hear....word.

We will not give you anymore heroes,
anymore icons,
anymore more historic figures
for you to disembowel
their struggles
their fights
their courage
only to leave a rotting corpse
of disdainful character.

They are gods,
they are human
they are the messiahs
as are we

you will never
discredit
our lineage.

we are free.

inside out

I keep replaying those last moments. I remember standing with you on the balcony overlooking the water and boats docked near by. We shared a kiss. And i tried to memorize the moment. [As i always do.] Memorizing the position of the sun. Taking note of the breeze. Mapping the clouds. And the only memory that i can recall with clarity, is how everything faded into the warmth of our kiss.

on some real shit

it was easier when i didn't expect for you to love me. i was able to hide behind a shield, i was able to guard my heart. i am too vulnerable, too easily hurt now.

I question things. Have i over romanticized this relationship to a fault? and now that it is under close examination and scrutiny...are cracks being exposed?

i just want us to get along. i just want us to love without hesitation. i want us to just be.

shuffle

I put my cards on the table.
and walked away.
he asked me why i was leaving the game.
i said "i'm tired of playing hearts
and always losing."
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sigh

a start

i am fragile,
but resilient.
although your actions have fractured my heart
i have learned home remedies to mend it
these mixtures of time and sage sayings
applied to open wounds
sting at first contact
but soon soothe the soul
from the wanderings of memories gone astray

the distance is all too familiar
even when you are within reach
i hesitate to touch you
often wearing the scars of past loves on my finger tips
and they have become bold
gathering on mounts
highlighted in sunday sermons
shouting, and jumping,
praising the suffering-
a congregation of hurt.

but i shall overcome...

Loose change

It's been sometime, You've probably forgotten who i am. Somedays, I feel as if i have forgotten me as well. So many changes have been going on in my life. I chose to follow my heart, leave...I know it was the right thing to do. I couldn't stay and pretend any longer. I couldn't keep denying myself. i'm far from perfect. i hope you'll appreciate the honesty.

I revamped the blog a little. no longer is it "earthquakes for snowflakes"-that chapter has closed.

so here's a toast to new beginnings and growth.

guess what?

i'm going back go cali. so this chapter of my life is over...good bye NY see ya when i see ya.
can't wait to get back to the beaches and the sun.