Wednesday, January 13, 2010

on some real shit

it was easier when i didn't expect for you to love me. i was able to hide behind a shield, i was able to guard my heart. i am too vulnerable, too easily hurt now.

I question things. Have i over romanticized this relationship to a fault? and now that it is under close examination and scrutiny...are cracks being exposed?

i just want us to get along. i just want us to love without hesitation. i want us to just be.

Monday, January 11, 2010

shuffle


I put my cards on the table.
and walked away.
he asked me why i was leaving the game.
i said "i'm tired of playing hearts
and always losing."
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sigh